Basically, this is an apology post for being MIA for what feels like forever, but is really only a week. So here is a little story to make it up to you.
Soon after I graduated college, I also fell in love. Like completely fell in love to the point where we acted a bit crazy. I got my first crappy, post-grad job and blew it off so unprofessionally because I “just could not stand to be away from him”. Yes, we got a little crazy and I felt completely out of control. What do you do with your life when you don’t have classes to go to and homework to do and frat parties to attend…
This was also around the time that I bought the book 20-Something, 20-Everything by Christine Hassler. It talked about how young women today feel obligated to be “everything”- or a quarter life crisis as the author calls it.
My mother, I don’t know how she did it, cleaned the house, cooked homemade dinners (that we all sat down for together), got us to after school activities, made sure we did our homework, got us to bed, was active in church and the community, while also somehow managing to have a career.
Shit. How am I ever going to do that? After being in the working world for 3 years and having a child for 2, I still don’t know. Will I ever? These past two week I can’t tell you how many texts from my mom I’ve gotten saying something like “you okay?”, “still stressed?”, “you feel better?”… all I say is, “Mom, I don’t know how you did it.”
“I know.” Is her response.
My job is stressful, fast paced with lots of deadlines. Sometimes when I stay up half of the night into the morning with a glass of wine (ok, more than a glass) and work on “blog stuff” as I call it, my husband doesn’t really get it. I’m so tired the next day and back to being stressed out about work. I’ve realized it’s because blogging is is one of my few outlets.
Aside from my job, taking care of the house and my family, I also write for a local wedding website, post as much as I can here and have also gotten super passionate about working out. No matter how hard I try, something seems to be neglected. I let the house get SO messy or do zero work on the wedding website… this week, I have kept up with my wedding blogs (they’ve been awesome, go look!) and have been adament about my health and working out. That means A Modern Shore Life has been put on the back burner a bit for my family and job (year end sucks, am I right?!)
I will stop rambling… all I really wanted to say is this. I know I am not the only one and for any of you 20 somethings (or anythings) out there, I GET IT! I guess what we have to do is prioritize and find the few things that make us happiest and just try to find some balance. How? I’m still not sure exactly, but I will let you know if I figure it out.